You also have the advantage of experience, which I think is what got me through. I wanted to make sure I made an impact where I could, that I gave the team a meaningful contribution.
So I didn't chase everything. I didn't want to run needlessly and burn myself out, so it was about timing where I'd show up and, if I got the ball, making sure I used it well. The coaches were gracious and thankful that I had given them 70 minutes but, for me, and for them, the bigger thing was that the team had played well.
It was really pleasing we had come together so well given there were injuries in the group.
It was a real honour for me to play against Victor Matfield. He is a player I have always admired and respected as he is, still, probably the best lineout operator in the world.
I had this feeling he knew where the ball was going on our throw. He could read the body language and he's just so good at set-pieces. But while he took a couple of our throws, he didn't rip us apart as he has some teams this year.
Having had an unexpected taste of Super Rugby again, I guess I am open to still playing at this level. I'd like to have a crack at the ITM Cup and we will see what happens.
I wouldn't want to be picked as the bloke who is there to boost morale " that wouldn't interest me. If I was going to play Super Rugby again, it would have to be because the coaching staff thought I merited a place and I'd want to have a genuine go at being a starting player.
Mentally and physically, I'd need that challenge - want that challenge - and it's good for everyone as it creates competition. But I'll wait and see how things play out.