Three years ago Jazz Thornton tried to take her own life. She was 19, had concocted the "perfect plan" and was determined that this was going to be it.

Now aged 23, the Auckland woman has taken to social media to speak out about the night her deadly plan failed, and the police officer that went above and beyond the call of duty to save her.

"July 2015 I believed that life was not worth living. I had run out of my house down to the local park and began to start the process of taking my life," Thornton posted to Facebook yesterday.

"It was late, dark and cold as I thought back on my life and everything that had happened and how much I had messed up.


"With tears streaming down my face, I text out my final goodbye. I glanced across the park and saw a group of flashlights, afraid that they would come across me before I was dead, I [did it]."

This was the fourteenth time Thornton had attempted suicide, with childhood abuse and the belief she was "unlovable and a burden" fuelling each effort.

The teenager was diagnosed with depression and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).

"The first time I tried to do it I was 12-years-old and it was more about what was going on in my life, but as I got older it was more about how I felt about myself," she said.

"I remember when I went down to the park I was very determined that this was going to be it. I had actually had a girl that I was mentoring take her life earlier that year, which I felt partially responsible for.

"I remember she was missing for 27 hours before they found her, so I decided to call the cops and tell them what I was going to do, so they would be the ones that found me and not some poor member of the public.

"In my mind I had it planned out that I would have enough time because of the method I was using, I knew that it would be immediate - but the police were a lot closer than I thought."

Since having her life saved by Constable Meika Campbell, Jazz Thornton has started a mental health awareness company and toured the world sharing her story. Photo / Supplied
Since having her life saved by Constable Meika Campbell, Jazz Thornton has started a mental health awareness company and toured the world sharing her story. Photo / Supplied

Thornton said her jacket became caught on a branch.


"Suddenly I felt hands holding me up against the trunk of the tree. Those hands were yours," her post said.

Those hands belonged to Constable Meika Campbell, a first responder to the scene.

"You held me there while I resisted, you called for backup and attempted to calm me down. Your partner cut me down and you both carried me to the police car while I was kicking and crying," Thornton wrote.

She was angry when police found her, "In my mind I had come up with this perfect plan and it hadn't worked," she said.

She then spent approximately 25 minutes in the police car where she remembers the kind embrace of Constable Campbell and her encouraging words.

"Putting me in the back of the car, you came around the other side and sat with me, putting your arms around me while I cried my heart out. While we waited for the ambulance you sat with me, still with your arms around me telling me how much my life was worth.


"I eventually looked up and saw tears streaming down your face as you told me of the future I could have. The ambulance came and I was moved to the back of it. You sat beside me, refusing to leave my side letting your partner drive the police car to the hospital so you could sit with me," she said.

"It was at that moment I thought, 'Oh wow, she doesn't even know me and she cares'."

Thornton explained how Constable Campbell sat with her at the hospital, well into the night.

"You sat with me on the hospital bed, continuing to speak into my future and telling me of the hope you knew. Hours passed and your shift had ended and you were still by my side.

"Eventually you had to leave and you grabbed my phone, dialling in your work number saying 'I want you to text me tomorrow and tell me you are okay. I believe in you. You can do this. You need to make it to your 21st birthday and if you can do that for me, I will come and find you on that day to say happy birthday'."

DEAR THE POLICE OFFICER WHO SAVED MY LIFE; July 2015 I believed that life was not worth living. I had run out of my...

Posted by Voices of HOPE on Friday, 27 April 2018

Thornton said she text Constable Campbell the next day, not expecting a reply, but "sure enough she replied". The pair have kept in touch ever since.


The next day the teenager was discharged into community care, before spending a month and a half in a mental health ward.

Two years later she had an unexpected knock at her door.

"On my 21st birthday [Constable Campbell] knocked at my door and I was like 'what the heck'," she said.

"By this stage, I had forgotten of [her] promise - but [she] hadn't. [She] came to my house and knocked on my door just to say Happy Birthday. To celebrate the fact I was still alive and fighting.

"It meant the world to me and it meant the world that she believed that I could do it even when I didn't believe myself."

Thornton said this moment was the starting point for everything she is doing now.


A few months later she, and friend Genevieve Mora, launched non-profit movement Voices of Hope.

The company is dedicated to presenting hope for people struggling with mental illness and other related daily struggles.

"We both had our mental health battles, Genevieve had eating disorders and OCD, so we had varying experiences and wanted to use our stories to help others.

"We wanted to be the people that we needed when we were going through that and to show people no matter what you are going through, it is possible to get through."

Voices of Hope has since become internationally famous, with one of its videos gathering over 80 million views online.

Thornton and Mora have also toured New Zealand and Australia speaking in high schools, and at events in the US.


"A lot has happened, but I think more than all of the things, I now know who I am and my core beliefs that I had at that time, of being unlovable and a burden, were broken."

In her Facebook post, Thornton thanked Constable Campbell.

"You went over and beyond your 'job requirements'. Thank you Constable Campbell for not only physically saving my life that night, but for speaking hope, for sitting with me, crying with me and seeing a future for me that at that point, I couldn't see.

"A future I am now living in, everything I now get to do, every video I create, talk I give or mental health campaign I organise would not have happened had you not stepped in that night.

"Your intervention and care ensured that I lived to see breakthrough and freedom.
Thank you for putting your life on the line for our country and while doing so, saving mine."

Where to get help:

Lifeline: 0800 543 354 (available 24/7)
• Suicide Crisis Helpline: 0508 828 865 (0508 TAUTOKO) (available 24/7)
Youthline: 0800 376 633
Kidsline: 0800 543 754 (available 24/7)
Whatsup: 0800 942 8787 (1pm to 11pm)
Depression helpline: 0800 111 757 (available 24/7)
Rainbow Youth: (09) 376 4155
Samaritans: 0800 726 666
If it is an emergency and you feel like you or someone else is at risk, call 111.