Auckland Pride (or its precursor Hero) has never been marred by police brutality, which at first glance made the current board's new-found fixation on banning uniformed police all the more bizarre.
What became clear as the Pride fiasco rolled on late last year however, was that the board's police ban was about more than just removing uniformed cops from the parade.
They knew the backlash that was coming, but they also knew it was their chance to radically alter an entire festival to fulfil their own fringe ideological agenda. They didn't want a celebration, of love, inclusion and diversity. Pride for this group is not about any of that, instead, it is about conflict and clinging to a marginalised identity regardless of the hard-fought progress that we have made.
Tragically, they have missed the very essence of what is means to have pride. Defined as "confidence and self-respect as expressed by members of a group, typically one that has been socially marginalised, on the basis of their shared identity, culture, and experience." As the reckless decision to ban uniformed police ripped the community apart, it was clear early on that Auckland Pride 2019 would not be echoing that mantra.
There has never been a better time to be LGBT in New Zealand, but to the Pride board that was not worthy of celebrating. This year's "walk" was a protest, yet it was unclear exactly what they were protesting.
Gone was the parade down Ponsonby Road with the glitter, sparkling lights and oiled up bodies. Gone also was the crowd. From 30,000 in attendance, including the Prime Minister, major corporations and the Defence Force in 2018 — to 2019 with no Labour or National party representation, no corporates, no major community organisations.
Instead we were served up a CBD "walk" between two parks with placards, banners and megaphones and a mere 3000 (a generous estimate) attendees. Looking through the list of groups attending, it was barely distinguishable from an anti-TPPA protest.
There is no denying there's a vocal minority who want this sort of grievance walk, but the pitiful number of attendees clearly indicate that was not the majority wish of the community.
As Sydney gears up for another diverse and inclusive Mardi Gras parade and festival focused on celebration with an expected 300,000 attendees, it's hard not to feel sad at what Auckland's LGBT community has lost.
• Levi Joule is a former editor of New Zealand LGBT publication Express. He was the inaugural Auckland University Student's Association queer rights officer and lives in Sydney.