Cara Delevingne suffered from a "massive wave" of depression as a young girl.

The Paper Towns star has admitted she struggled with anxiety and depression in her childhood, which led her to self-harm.

She said: "This is something I haven't been open about, but it's a huge part of who I am. All of a sudden I was hit with a massive wave of depression and anxiety and self-hatred, where the feelings were so painful that I would slam my head against a tree to try to knock myself out.

"I never cut, but I'd scratch myself to the point of bleeding. I just wanted to dematerialise and have someone sweep me away."


The 22-year-old model and actress also admitted to feeling "guilty" about the negative emotions she felt towards her life.

She added to Vogue magazine: "I smoked a lot of pot as a teenager, but I was completely mental with or without drugs.

"I thought that if I wanted to act, I'd need to finish school, but I got so I couldn't wake up in the morning. The worst thing was that I knew I was a lucky girl, and the fact that you would rather be dead ... you just feel so guilty for those feelings, and it's this vicious circle. Like, how dare I feel that way? So you just attack yourself some more."

Paper Towns is a coming-of-age story centering on Quentin and his enigmatic neighbor Margo, who loved mysteries so much she became one. After taking him on an all-night adventure through their hometown, Margo suddenly disappears - leaving behind cryptic clues for Quentin to decipher.
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