To achieve these goals, it's simple, focus on what I have control of, believe in the training you did and focus on doing the process well in each event. The true prize for me is not a gold medal, it is the sense of pride when you hit that blue carpet and I hear my name at the finish line.
When I'm on the blue carpet there are a million things going through my mind, I think of my family, friends and my coaches and the people my story has touched and I say to myself - "This is for you guys!" Then the stupid smile - "I can't believe I'm here doing this" hits.
When I look back 4 years and think about what it was like jumping into a pool and learning to swim again after 20 odd years. I swam 25 metres, stopped to catch my breath then back to complete 50 metres. I will never forget what I said to myself (the polite version is), "What the hell am I doing here? I can't swim 60 lengths - I must be mad." So, I'm sure that in 15 days' time when I'm standing in the swim wave group surrounded by mean athletic looking machines I will be saying the same thing... How the hell did I guy like me get here? But this time I will be thinking I got this!
My point is that when you pluck up the courage to hop in that pool, get on that bike or put on those shoes - just give it a go! You will surprise yourself and the feedback and encouragement you will get from those around you will drive your determination to keep going and I can guarantee that the Tri community in NZ out there are full of humble, accommodating and supportive people from the novice to the elite are all too willing to help.
And before you know it, you could be heading to an ITU world champs yourself!