She then explained the theory of "parts" to me, which is that your subconscious mind is made up of lots of different versions of you, and the part that processes your anxiety is often "Little You" around 7 years old. Naturally, Little You isn't equipped to keep Big You safe and calm as they're only 7, so they're shrieking with fear all the time like a normal freaked-out kid would. Caroline explained that through hypnotherapy, we would be able to tap into Little Me and reassure them that Big Me has everything covered and that we're all good.
After settling me into a big cosy armchair and wrapping me in a fur blanket like a very regal toddler, Caroline began the hypnotherapy. I remember parts of it. She talked about cutting the cord that was attached between me and toxic people in my life and floating up above myself and reassuring Little Me that their emotions are healthy and not to worry because I'll keep them safe. I can't remember anything after that, except jolting upright in my little furry cocoon because I had fallen asleep.
Fun fact about me is I've never had a one-night stand because I cannot literally sleep next to someone I don't know very, very well, and it took me months before I was able to stay the night with my now-fiance. But that all changed apparently with Caroline and her soothing hypnosis. I had been absolutely conked out, then awoke feeling like I'd been in a beautiful healing coma. I felt calm, content and my dissociation episode had dissipated. Afterwards she also sent me a recording of the session so I could listen to it while I go to sleep at night, like a very special bespoke bedtime story.
I didn't believe in hypnotherapy before I met Caroline, and while I know it doesn't work for everyone – it definitely worked for me. And even if you don't believe in that kind of thing, I reckon it's still worth paying for a session to have the best nap of your life.