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Well I treated myself a little and packed up Benji and Mum and headed to the Coast - Westport - to see my family.
I left Andrew at home to catch up on some sleep and to just have a well deserved break from taking care of us.
It
was so nice to see my family, my brother, his wife and my nephews and all my aunts and uncles.
Most hadn't seen me without hair so were a little shocked but for them to see that I am really doing okay and am happy was good, I think they feel a bit more at ease with this whole adventure.
I tried on my wig yesterday morning - thinking that I might just have a go at wearing it, but honestly I am not so sure if I'll wear it; I just feel fake in it, it's just not me.
I am not one to pretend or to hide things - if I feel happy, sad, yuck or scared I just like to roll with it and I find that being me is the easiest thing to do, so wearing a wig almost feels like I am ashamed of how I look and I'm not.
I may not have a head full of hair anymore but I'm still me and happy to be here.
This week I have been quite happy just ticking along, trying to think of things to look forward to that take me past the treatment and the week of feeling gross.
This weekend we will be just relaxing and spending some quality family time together, I have my brother Julian and his two boys Calum and Ethan over till Saturday, helping my Mum paint her house so it's great for Benji to have the big boys to play with - he will be one lonely wee boy next week.
Makes it easier for me having Benji distracted because man that boy never stops; he's into everything - growing up far too quickly.
Today's treatment takes me to HALF WAY - "Hump Day" I guess you call it, on the downward slope - yippee.
Three down, three to go. I can almost see the big party at the end of this.
Speaking of that I must organise something exciting to do when all this is over. I am sure I am going to feel like celebrating and I'm positive Andrew will too.
Thanks to those people that say hi to me now, it's so nice to get a smile from people. I try my best to pass it on too.
I can't thank everybody enough for all the support, I feel like I have made so many friends - it's made this whole journey worthwhile; meeting new people and in some ways helping others to understand and answer their questions about breast cancer, chemo and all the horrible things that go along with it.
I love being able to talk about it, it really does make it easier to deal with. I know there are so many people that cancer affects and if you have any questions or you're like me - a young woman needing someone to chat to, feel free to contact me.
It helped so much when I had a few people to talk to that had been through this. It's not something your average 24/25 year old ever prepares themselves for.
I have had a few people ask how they can contact me if they don't have email: try P O Box 1467, Christchurch - address it to me and I'll get it.