In the women's mags: Celebrities reveal pain and shame behind very public smiles

Behind the celebrities' smiles there's a host of pain, the women's magazines can reveal.

First up, April Bruce tells the NZ Woman's Weekly that all the while she was smiling in interviews for the birth of her son Xanda, she had postnatal depression.

The former TV presenter told the Weekly: "I felt like I was walking around, lost and exhausted, in a fog, not knowing which way to go."

The turning point came for her when she read an article about postnatal depression in men. "I read through the symptoms, like crying, feeling helpless, a sense of being overwhelmed and thought 'Wow, that's me!'."

Felicity Huffman from Desperate Housewives, reveals how she felt the ugliest of the stars on the show.

The actress, who has won an Emmy and a Golden Globe, as well as a nomination for an Oscar, says she once cried when the show's publicity photographer spent hours taking shots of everyone else but not her.

"For the first hour I was like, 'This is so funny - nobody wants to take a picture of me'. The second hour; my nose was a little out of joint. By the third hour, I hated it'."

Also, trying to hide the pain is Nicole Kidman in Woman's Day who is now "sick with worry" that the secrets of her divorce of Tom Cruise will become public in a Hollywood wire-tapping scandal.

The FBI is investigating private eye Anthony Pellicano who has made illegal tapes of stars' conversations.

A source says: "Both Tom and Nicole thought that part of their lives was behind them. Now they may be forced to relive it if they're called as witness or if the tape is ever made public."

And the magazine also uses the star of Sensing Murder, psychic Deb Webber, to try to piece together what happened to missing Auckland student Iraena Asher.

Her verdict? She fell from a rock at Piha. "She was focused on the rock. She wanted to enjoy just being there. She started climbing. There was a cut away in the rock and she slipped. I see her falling."

Meanwhile New Idea has the lowdown on Catherine Zeta Jones. Apparently, she wants a third child but husband Michael Douglas, 61, says no.

He is quoted as saying: "Sometimes Catherine says she'd like three children, but then I point out her very handsome 25-year-old stepson. Look, women's careers [in Hollywood] are pretty finite."