KEY POINTS:
Oh no. How do I get myself into these situations? It's like I have a predisposed condition towards awkward moments.
You may recall I recently had a run in at party that left me a little red-faced.
Well that was nothing compared to last night's predicament... Only this time I wasn't left embarrassed, I was completely shame faced.
The truth is, a while ago, I did a pretty shitty thing.
It was a couple of weeks before Christmas and my boyfriend and I had just broken up, literally days earlier. Flicker decided to drown my sorrows by taking me out for some Friday night drinks.
We met up with a couple of mates and headed to another friend's work do.
There, I got chatting to a guy Sam. He had studied with some of my friends and I knew him vaguely, but we'd never really talked before.
Anyway, the night progressed, Flicker made some new "friends" and vanished into the night (as is her way) and I was left with Sam and his mate Rob, whom I knew reasonably well but wouldn't consider a close friend.
The boys had another party to attend and invited me along. So off we went to a swish inner-city bar where I knew absolutely no one.
Rob soon disappeared into the crowd, most of who were his old school mates, and I was left with Sam, who also didn't know anyone.
We chatted for about an hour - it turned out Sam had recently come out of a long term relationship as well - before Sam excused himself to go and get another drink.
Which is when I was struck by a moment of complete paranoia. Convinced he was trying to escape from me and must think me a total sad sack loser, I ran out of the bar, without saying a word to anyone.
(Bear in mind, I was a complete emotional wreck and in no state to be out in the first place.)
While this was bad enough in itself, it is my behaviour following this incident that I'm truly ashamed of.
Later (I can't remember where exactly) I saw Sam again. And blatantly, inexcusably, ignored him. You know the situation, where you make full eye contact with someone and then try to turn your head as if you haven't noticed them.
Appalling.
Even worse... I've done this on more than one occasion.
Until last night, when a friend and I headed into to town to meet an old uni mate of hers - and lo-an-behold whom is sitting with her, but Sam.
Aghhhh...
The thing is, I actually think Sam is a really cool guy - plus he's quite gorgeous - which just adds to my horror.
All I can say is I feel awful, I am an idiot and I hang my head in shame.
