The deputy headteacher who murdered his wife and three children before killing himself said he was sorry in a note found at the scene.

Alan Hawe, 40, killed his sons Liam, 13, Niall, 11, and Ryan, 6, in the family home, an inquest found.

He also murdered his wife Clodagh, 39, before he killed himself in August last year.

In a note found at the home in Ballyjamesduff in County Cavan, Ireland, and published by the Irish Daily Star, Hawe wrote: "I am sorry for how I murdered them all but I simply had no other way."

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The note, which was addressed to his parents and siblings as well as his wife's mother and sister, also explained: "I am sorry for my brutality but I had no other way."

Hawe also reportedly requested that he not be forgiven for his actions, the MailOnline reported.

Details from the five-page letter had previously been given to members of the jury but were not read out at the inquest.

It was found at the scene of the murders on August 29, alongside another note that was taped on the back door of the house, which read: "Please do not come in. Please call the gardai."

Hawe also explained in the note that it was easier for his sons to be killed than for them to be subjected to the trauma of his own suicide.

He even left instructions that he be cremated, with his ashes thrown out to sea, and he specifically requested he not be buried as a Catholic.

Hawe also spoke of his career worries, referring at one point in the note to how his students perceived him.

Professor Harry Kennedy, clinical director at the Central Mental Hospital told coroner Dr Mary Flanagan that counselling notes from March to June last year indicated that "Alan Hawe was troubled".

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Kennedy told the hearing that he believed that when Hawe carried out the murder-suicide he had progressed from long-term depression to a severe depressive episode with psychotic symptoms.

"When people act in the course of severe mental illness, such as very severe psychotic mental illness, their judgment is severely impaired," Kennedy said.

After the inquest, a solicitor for Mary Coll and Jacqueline Connolly, Clodagh's mother and sister, said Hawe targeted his wife and eldest son first for fear they may fight back.

On the steps of the courthouse, lawyer Liam Keane said the killings were premeditated and calculated.

Flanked by the grief-stricken Coll and Connolly, he said: "It is clear from the evidence presented at the inquest that Clodagh and her boys were killed in a sequence that ensured that the eldest and most likely to provide effective resistance were killed first, and they were executed in a manner that rendered them unable to cry out for help."

Keane said the two-day hearing, which included harrowing evidence examining how the school teacher mother and her sons died, does not address why Hawe "committed this savagery".

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The solicitor referred to the psychotherapist David McConnell who held counselling sessions with Hawe from March 15 to June 21 2016.

"His counsellor has said that he was concerned about his position as a pillar of the community," Keane said.

"We are aware that he was concerned at his imminent fall from that position and the breakdown of his marriage."

The bodies of the Hawe family were discovered after Coll called to their home and saw an envelope on the back door warning for police to be called.

The jury of six women and one man returned verdicts of unlawful killing of Clodagh Hawe and her three boys and suicide in the death of Alan Hawe.

The inquest was told the vice-principal last visited the psychotherapist and his GP on June 21 2016.

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McConnell said Hawe gave no indication that he would harm himself or others. Dr Paula McKevitt said Hawe attended her surgery complaining about a sore toenail.

He also told her he had washed his feet in bleach.

The GP said he was a little stressed about work and had not been sleeping.


If you are worried about your or someone else's mental health, the best place to get help is your GP or local mental health provider. However, if you or someone else is in danger or endangering others, call police immediately on 111.

Or if you need to talk to someone else:

• LIFELINE: 0800 543 354 (available 24/7)
• SUICIDE CRISIS HELPLINE: 0508 828 865 (0508 TAUTOKO) (available 24/7)
• YOUTHLINE: 0800 376 633
• NEED TO TALK? Free call or text 1737 (available 24/7)
• KIDSLINE: 0800 543 754 (available 24/7)
• WHATSUP: 0800 942 8787 (1pm to 11pm)
• DEPRESSION HELPLINE: 0800 111 757

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