After a particularly bad run of losses, Lockyer went home, turned out all the lights and sat in the dark.
"I ... was just shattered. I was a wreck ... and significantly out of pocket."
Lockyer was a punter before he joined the Broncos. He walked into a betting culture at the club with a number of senior players, including former captain Allan Langer and Wendell Sailor, known to love a bet.
"When I lost, it wrecked my day, sometimes my week, depending on how big a hit I had taken," Lockyer writes.
It was his mother, Sharon, who eventually called Bennett for help.
Lockyer criticises the Broncos for their treatment of Bennett, the way returning prop Petero Civoniceva was allowed leave when he wanted to stay and why, in his opinion, Ivan Henjak, the only coach to be sacked by the club, was not the right man for the job.
He also reveals he has spoken with Queensland coach Mal Meninga about being part of the 2012 Origin campaign to help the Maroons keep winning.
- AAP