When a man as dedicated to the game as Kane Williamson says those words, it reveals how hard the death of Australian international Phillip Hughes has hit the New Zealand team.
Reinforcing Williamson's sentiment, as he delivered a message of support to the Hughes family, was thefact he'd made his highest test score of 192.
The innings contributed to 637 for eight, a record away score for New Zealand against all countries, and created a 286-run lead over Pakistan heading into the fourth day. It only got a passing mention at the end Williamson's chat with nzherald.co.nz.
"We've been hit hard thinking of Phil's family and friends. I know cricket was played today but Brendon [McCullum] and I mentioned that a lot out in the middle [during their record New Zealand second-wicket partnership of 297 against all countries]. It was still raw and at the forefront of our minds."
Williamson says he met Hughes at the 2008 under-19 World Cup and their paths crossed regularly through English county cricket and internationals. They'd have a general catch-up about life as young professionals.
"He was so calm; what a talent. That's why this is such a huge shame. A horrible event like this puts things in perspective, even for those who might be somewhat removed.
"We all react in different ways at times like this so 'Roman' [team manager Mike Sandle] got us all together and encouraged us to talk about it. He said a problem shared is a problem halved."
Williamson says it was tougher returning for the postponed second day.
"Just getting through the minute's silence, having the bats lined up for Hughesy and then writing 'PH' on our shirts. That was something some of the guys just started doing. Nothing was spoken, it was just about raw emotion and providing a few small gestures of respect."
Senior batsman Ross Taylor backed Williamson's assessment.
"It was another strange day. Without the other circumstances if we'd reached 637 for eight we'd be ecstatic, but 'strange' is the only way I can describe it.
"It has been a little bit better today but I still think we are a way away from regaining the enjoyment factor in our cricket."
Despite the freak nature of the tragedy, Williamson expected there would be further research and development into helmet technology as a result.
"I imagine manufacturers will be looking into their equipment to make improvements and I have no doubt those will come through very quickly."
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