It got me thinking on what is trauma? I've always thought of it as something people have after surviving extreme events in life, usually connected, but not limited to, abuse of some description. Being asked to stay home for four months might have been a challenge, decently an inconvenience, but could it have been considered traumatic?
"A pretty good rule of thumb for trauma is that you feel that you can't escape," explains psychotherapist Kyle MacDonald. "Trauma manifests itself as a failure of memory, we can't process the experience because the emotions it produces are too intense that we are revisited by the experience."
This manifests itself in feelings of hyper vigilance, nightmares or intrusive memories. So when I felt that bit of dread enter my thoughts at the mention of another lockdown, was that in fact trauma?
"Lockdowns were without doubt distressing for many, but that's different to trauma. If you're finding leaving your house difficult, or feeling constant fear about catching Covid its okay to describe it by whatever words you want to use," says MacDonald.
Words such as anxiety, avoidance or detachment might more accurately describe and help communicate what you're feeling. Regardless it's important to find the words that work for you.
If in looking at your own situation, it feels like you can't escape recurring thoughts related to lockdown, then know that you deserve help with that and a good first step is talking it over with a friend or family member. And if you need it, remember that the national mental health helpline is available to free call or text on 1737.