Nicole Kidman, 38, says her divorce from Tom Cruise five years ago was a "major shock" - and she still loves him.
"He was huge; still is. To me, he was just Tom, but to everybody else, he is huge. But he was lovely to me. And I loved him.I still love him," she tells Ladies Home Journal.
"I always knew the rug was going to be taken out from underneath me at some stage," Kidman says.
"I knew I was going to get hit with something. But I think a divorce, and the demise of what your family is, is a little death in itself."
