“I was robbed of so many things that day. My parents won’t be at my wedding, they won’t get to hold their future grandchild, and they won’t get to see me have the successful career I’m still seeking. It simultaneously breaks my heart and enrages me.”
Jake wrote the scale of the loss was compounded by the accusation against his brother.
He said: “We lost more than half of our family that night in the most violent way imaginable.
“Sure, any loss of a parent is devastating, but nothing compares to losing both of them at the same time and, on top of that, having your brother be at the centre of it. It’s almost too impossible to process.”
Nick is due in court on April 29 for a discovery hearing and remains in custody without bail.
Jake said the months since the killings have been marked by ongoing grief and disbelief.
“Every day since then has been horrendous.
“Every meeting we take, every person we talk to, every tear we shed, every movement we make is connected to our parents being murdered.”
Jake described the continuing impact on himself and Romy, saying the reality of the loss remains constant.
He said: “Because they weren’t your parents, it might be easier to move forward or even forget for a moment about what happened that day.
“But for us, it’s every single day.”
Paying tribute, Jake said his parents were central to his life.
“They are my guiding lights, the foundation of who I am as a human being, and the most giving people I have ever known.”