But I can honestly say joining the clinic has been the best decision. I couldn't have made it through the training without my amazing pack group.
There's nothing like three hours running in the forest to form a bond. It is support money just can't buy.
Completing the Rotorua Marathon has been a bucket list item I didn't think I could achieve, let alone as a runner.
The 5hrs 31m it took me were simultaneously my best and toughest moments, and my life will never be the same. It's a day I will tell my grandchildren about.
I loved the Hamurana section. Supporters yelling "go Lake City" still rings in my ears. I felt like a runner. Achieving my own objective of running the whole way felt great and so too did the unexpected pleasure of picking off other runners.
Also, my children have seen me strive for my goal, they've seen that sometimes you have to work really hard - and miss out on a lot of couch time - but that the rewards are worth it.
They've seen me walk the walk, excuse the pun.
I've learned that I am capable, that any sort of body can run a marathon, it's really the brain that needs the training.
Lake Rotorua, I'll be back.