I sat on the couch and bawled my eyes out.
It was May and I had just got off the phone with another midwife who didn't have capacity to take me on.
What contrast to the joy I'd felt a few weeks earlier.
I suspected I was pregnant and took a test. When the line showed up on the stick, I wordlessly held it out to my husband.
It took him a few seconds to register what he was looking at, then our eyes met, a huge grin on both our faces.
I booked an appointment with my doctor soon