Angela Stone has further opened up about her family tragedy, recalling her mother's death and brother's disappearance "like it was yesterday".
"It was the coldest, greyest day in my life," The Real Housewives of Auckland star told the Woman's Day.
She spoke about her mother's struggle with schizophrenia and anxiety, before she eventually took her own life in 2003.
"I can remember exactly what I was doing and what time of day it was - and for as long as I live, I know I'll never forget how it felt," Stone said.
"I had talked to Mum the night before, the same way we did every night...but I had a feeling. I knew something was up and I kept asking her, 'are you ok?'"
Stone's second tragedy struck when her brother Carl was so deeply affected by their mother's death that he disappeared later that year.
Stone says she's spoken to him on the phone a handful of times and seen him once, but "he just looked lost, gone" and eventually Stone had to accept that may not want to be found.
"We were each other's world and now he's gone. It's like mourning a mother and a brother, only I know he is alive and I hope to God that one day he finds his way home."
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