I have hardly any clothes. It's sensational though because it means I am losing weight but horrendous at the same as I am down to one pair of jeans.
So I tried going to Bayfair on Thursday night to find a pair of jeansand what a mission that was.
I have never tried on so many jeans and out of nine pairs nothing suited and I ended up buying a top . I think I need to have a date with a shrink to talk about how an earth I learn to love my body the way it is. Please tell me ladies, how do I find happiness with my body?
I have asked a lot of my friends and they all feel the same as me, there are parts of their bodies that they want to change. For some it is their boobs, others it's their arms or butt and for me it is my legs - bless my mum and her genetics for kindly giving me a short stature. Guess nice things come in small packages.
Well it's nearly the end of an era with sharing my whole experience of weight loss and what a ride it has been. This past week I have been feeling rebellious against myself which must sound weird. But honestly not having yummy food is hard and there are times where you just want to binge eat.
I am getting really tired now to be honest and it is getting really hard. I really am over the strict regime of eating and definitely looking forward to the end of the first part of this chapter in my life. The next chapter is preparing my body for the competition in August 2012 where I will compete in the figure section and Brett will still be by my side training me which is awesome.
So even though I have gone hard out with food and exercise this isn't the end, which I think is the key to keeping off the extra kilos I have lost.
I was seriously bad yesterday too, it was my last day for clinical placement and there was food involved as there always is at a farewell, so I ate a piece of chocolate cake that Anna made, then had a spoonful of Pam's pavlova and last but not least a bite of Jo's caramel slice.
I have put myself on the biggest guilt trip and I have no idea what got into me - but at least I didn't eat whole pieces of everything and negotiated with myself for just a bite.
At the end of the day I am only human and food really is the hardest part of losing the kilos.
