Ronda Rousey has revealed that she thought about 'killing herself' shortly after her shock UFC bantamweight defeat to Holly Holm in November.
In an interview with Ellen DeGeneres, the former UFC champion has admitted that she reached an all-time low just minutes after the brutal and shock defeat.
"I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself and that exact second I'm like, 'I'm nothing, what do I do anymore and no one gives a s*** about me anymore without this,'" Rousey told DeGeneres on The Ellen Show .
Rousey was left unconscious and hospitalised after the defeat and has yet to return to the octagon.
She added the thought of her future with boyfriend Travis Browne that kept her going, and gave her the strength she needed to carry on.
"To be honest I looked up and I saw my man Travis was standing up there and I looked up at him and I was like, I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive," Ronda said.
Rousey, who went into the fight against Holm with a perfect 12-0, is expected to return to the octagon later in the year. She's taken time off to finish filming for the upcoming Road House remake.
The 29-year-old also revealed that her first contact with Holly completely knocked her off her feet, where she lost teeth and perception.
"In that first hit I cut open my whole mouth and I knocked my teeth loose," she explained.
"I knew she was out there, but like I really don't remember most of it,' Rousey said, as she admitted to swinging blindly.
But, determined to see the fight through until the very end, she admitted that she tried to hide just how hurt she was in order to prevent being swarmed upon.
"So I was trying my best to kind of hide the fact that I wasn't even there anymore," she said.
Where to get help:
• Lifeline: 0800 543 354 (available 24/7)
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• Whatsup: 0800 942 8787 (1pm to 11pm)
• Depression helpline: 0800 111 757 (available 24/7)
• Samaritans: 0800 726 666 (available 24/7)
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- With Daily Mail