Mona Dotcom says she cried so hard after leaving Kim Dotcom she vomited.
The estranged wife of internet tycoon Kim Dotcom has broken her silence about their separation in an "explosive tell-all" interview with a New Zealand women's magazine.
The stunning Filipina ex-model and mother of five spoke to Woman's Day about the relationship breakdown, saying when she left Dotcom she was "crying so hard I was sick".
She told the magazine: "I was standing in the street in Takapuna, vomiting, swearing, asking myself over and over, 'Why did I leave? What the f*** have I done?"
She also revealed she lives 50m from her ex in a cottage on the grounds of the $50 million Coatesville mansion they shared, giving stability for the children.
A photo of the 25-year-old adorns the cover and inside she is in a variety of photos for the six-page spread, which features family photographs.
Mrs Dotcom said how she secretly fled the mansion late one night in May in a golf cart to meet a friend at the fence line of the property.
Kim Dotcom. Photo / Brett Phibbs
"We had an amazing life where I was his princess and when you're 19 or 20, that's cool. But then you grow up and want to explore the world and it doesn't work anymore," she told Woman's Day.
She described the relationship as a "Cinderella story" with the opulent lifestyle at the side of Dotcom, 40, vastly different from a tough childhood tainted by abuse and spent living with different relatives.
"I was only 17 or 18 when we met and I had a difficult childhood, as he did. He gave me emotional security."
She also revealed that Dotcom stashed bags of his favourite food, gummi bears, around the house.
Mrs Dotcom is preparing to study business at Massey University next month.
Photos: Kim and Mona Dotcom
• Read the Herald's full coverage of the Dotcom saga here.