I'm deeply aware that I have a "side" to me that's not exactly my best side.
It's neither peaceful nor calm, and it's a side where I am uncomfortably comfortable looking at the negative side of life, rather than what's good and what I'm grateful for. I know this darker side of me well! Sometimes it's welcomed, especially when it acts as my "risk radar", warning me to keep my wits about me around certain situations or people, but sometimes it dominates and gets in the way of my happiness. It's all about context, discernment and trusting in intuition. I don't see this duality in me as unusual, I call it being human, and thanks to modern science this duality is now identifiable and measurable.
I spent many years consistently in that fight or flight space, never wanting or choosing to be there, but not informed or equipped enough to do something different. I now am, only because I made the decision to go into "battle" with my own thinking. This led me to where modern science meets the metaphysical, which wasn't mainstream then and sadly still isn't. However, I predict this is going to change, and that's thanks to people like Dr Bruce Lipton, Dr Joe Dispenza, Dr Kerry Spackman and Gregg Braden. There is a clause, and it's pivotal to this inner work, and that is, that once informed and awake to the belief that we have far more power to create happiness than we thought, there is more (not less) response-ability on us. The paradox is though, that when you get to this point, it takes little energy to stay there.
It's much harder to stay negative than it is to stay positive once you've crossed the difficult river of change and you become awakened to your own potential. Every thought I now know leads me to my future. I don't have to predict my future, I simply create it. Being a victim of life is no longer valid. Ignorance (of the self) is NOT bliss, ignorance can kill and according to science, does!
I sometimes look back and wonder how I dodged that bullet of disease with 10 years of stress responses radically running amok around my body. I now know why all those positive affirmations could never have worked as no amount of positive thinking could overrule my entrenched chaotic emotional state. Authenticity to me is a balance of our whole humanness, including accepting, but not being dictated by, the lower frequency stuff like anger, fear, lust, jealousy, greed, control etc. Allowing the right mix of frequency and flow is key to wellbeing, I have found. This is something we can't force, we get there by our own awareness and readiness. Try to force a butterfly to leave its cocoon before it's ready, and it will die. We all have this powerful thing called a brain which is hungry and designed to learn and experience. Be open to new discoveries. Science tell us 95 per cent of our decisions are made from a subconscious level. Best we start getting familiar with what's getting decided under there but at a pace which is gentle enough, but at the same time challenging enough to create forward steps.
Socrates said "know thyself" and thousands of years on that still applies. I wonder what Socrates would think of us and how far we have come.
