For the play Bolwell cast herself as a 16-year-old who is working on a school project about World War 1, and interviews her grandfather, a North Otago farmer.
“My grandfather would never talk about the war,” Bolwell said.
“That’s what made writing this very difficult. I put Bill Massey’s Tourists together from stories. In the play I’m imagining my grandfather as if he is talking to me.
“What these men witnessed and did was something they could not talk about. In the play I quote a poem by Wilfred Owen who writes about what happened to men when they got gassed.
“My grandfather experienced gassing in Passchendaele. The war deeply affected him. After the war he ended up in a mental hospital where he was given ECT (electro convulsive therapy). I talk about the long-term effects of war on men.”
Bolwell said she found much of the play difficult to write, but that these are stories that should be told.
Her research included a visit to the Passchendaele battlefield in Belgium where row after row of white crosses on lawn tended by locals now stand.
“I asked a Belgian person ‘how can you live here with all this death around?’ He said it was fine. ‘We think of them as our friends’.”
Bolwell was told “The battlefield cemeteries are like sleeping cities”.
She said the hardest part in writing the play was describing Passchendaele.
“You’re trying to describe the indescribable. You’re trying to express the inexpressible. The only way to do that is physically.”
To do this she uses dance and projected imagery, some of which includes black and white photographic slides given to her by New Zealand theatre director Raymond Hawthorne.
Not everything in the play is serious though, Bolwell said.
A lot of New Zealand soldiers were larrikins. Many young men enlisted for adventure, and many lied about their age so they could serve overseas. In one scene Bolwell’s grandfather and his mates refuse to salute a British sergeant.
“When men are thrown together in high stress situations, joking keeps them going.”
Invited by the Auckland Regional Council to stage Bill Massey’s Tourists around the anniversary of Passchendaele, Bolwell performed it at a venue where several Vietnam War veterans told her what she portrayed was what they too experienced.
“War is war is war,” she said.