David White's daughter was murdered by her husband.
After suffering years of physical and psychological violence, Helen Meads found the strength to leave. Four days later, she was dead, shot in the head by her husband at their Matamata property.
Since then, her father has crusaded against family violence, raising awareness of the warning signs, in a bid to save others' lives. He is about to publish his second book about Helen, Family Violence, Lifting New Zealand's Dark Cloud.
"We never recognised the warning signs that came with family violence," he said.
"We failed ... Had I joined all those little dots together, we would have seen a picture that would have got me rather scared.
Never once did I ever step back and see the full picture or the lethality of Helen's situation - and that was a pretty big mistake.
"That's why I spend so much time now trying to raise people's awareness - look for the things that we just saw but didn't. I don't want others to walk in my shoes and find out the hard way. I want people to start listening."
In the book, out next month, he outlines all aspects of family violence.
He hopes the work, a guidebook of sorts, will raise awareness for victims, families and the community.
Until his daughter died he was completely ignorant of family violence. "Neither of us had any exposure to family violence before Helen's marriage so we didn't understand it. As such, we were like fish out of water and at no point did I think I needed to ring anyone or ask for help."
Helen Meads died in September 2009, four days after she had told her domineering and violent husband, Greg Meads, that she and her two daughters were leaving.
"In the end Helen had had enough," Mr White said.
"She'd been beaten pretty badly once and been hit enough times [so that] just a look or an action [from her husband] was enough to force submission, for her to cower down and toe the line. The whole sparkle had gone out of her life."
"He spent three days carefully putting together how he was going to kill her, and finish it - because he decided who left the marriage, not her," Mr White said.
Meads organised to take Helen's daughters to school and said he would go to their second farm afterwards. He sent Helen to clean the stables, and made sure no other farm workers were in the area.
He took the girls to school then went to the stable with a loaded shotgun.
"He waited till she walked past the end of a wall, put the gun to her head and blew her head off," Mr White said.
"It was cold and it was calculated ... He turned around, rang his father and said, 'I've just shot Helen. She's dead'."
Mr White's first book was Helen: The Helen Meads Tragedy. His second book is less personal and more about practical advice, information encouraging people to see the bigger picture, something he feels he did not do with Helen.
"We can make all the laws in the world but until we get into the community, and change the community, we're not going to make our country safe again," he said.
Mr White believes Kiwis do not know enough about family violence and many ignore it because it does not directly affect them -- or so they think.
"It's not until you're affected that you sit back and go, 'Why didn't I see that coming?'
"You say, 'It's not my problem,' but then suddenly it's right in front of you and you're standing there identifying your dead daughter.
"What does it take to drive it home to people?"
Mr White did not want any father, family or community to experience a loss like his family's. "We thought we had it under control ... and we were just so far from the truth.
"If only I'd made one phone call, Helen would be alive. I just don't want anyone else to end up saying, 'If only.'
"That's what I want to achieve more than anything."
If you're in danger NOW:
• Phone the police on 111 or ask neighbours of friends to ring for you
• Run outside and head for where there are other people
• Scream for help so that your neighbours can hear you
• Take the children with you
• Don't stop to get anything else
• If you are being abused, remember it's not your fault. Violence is never okay
Where to go for help or more information:
• Women's Refuge: Free national crisisline operates 24/7 - 0800 REFUGE or 0800 733 843 www.womensrefuge.org.nz
• Shine, free national helpline 9am- 11pm every day - 0508 744 633 www.2shine.org.nz
• It's Not Ok: Information line 0800 456 450 www.areyouok.org.nz
• Shakti: Providing specialist cultural services for African, Asian and Middle Eastern women and their children. Crisisline 24/7 0800 742 584
• Ministry of Justice: www.justice.govt.nz/family-justice/domestic-violence
• National Network of Stopping Violence: www.nnsvs.org.nz
• White Ribbon: Aiming to eliminate men's violence towards women, focusing this year on sexual violence and the issue of consent. www.whiteribbon.org.nz
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