A newly-sworn in cop is speaking out about her former career as a professional dominatrix.
Kristen Hyman, 30, was suspended on May 26, six days before her academy graduation, for allegedly failing to disclose "that she appeared in the films and sometimes saw clients privately for money".
The Bayonne, New Jersey, native says she's fighting to keep her job as a Hudson County sheriff officer, Daily Mail reports.
In an interview with the New York Post, she says she doesn't believe she should be judged on her past and that her previous occupation shouldn't determine her capability of performing her new one.
Hyman said she starred in dozens of kinky bondage films, not under her real name, during her four-year career in the fetish trade, insisting she never performed sex acts or doffed her costumes.
"I'm not embarrassed because I can own up to things I've done in the past," she told the Post.
As her latex-clad alter-ego, "Domina Nyx Blake," Hyman would humiliate and subjugate naked men but it wasn't to satisfy a personal fetish, but rather to pay the bills.
"I was struggling financially as an actress [and model]," she said. "I had been doing regular catalogs for clothing, small stuff."
She was told that she would make a "good wage" by performing in the videos and that "it was a safe thing".
Dismissing the role play as "stupid stuff I did as a kid", Hyman said that "the majority of the videos are ridiculously funny... it's super-cheesy stuff. Everything I'm doing is wink-wink."
During her run from 2008 to 2012, Hyman was billed as "a true sexual sadist who hurts people not because she has to, but because it truly brings her pleasure".
In some clips seen by DailyMail.com, she is seen kicking naked men in the testicles, choking a man in a swimming pool, and putting her heels on the face of a man in a leather mask.
Sometimes she even provided her own costumes, many of which she purchased off the rack at Party City.
"I even purchased an Iron Man costume at a Target in Florida!" she said.
"Me walking in declaring 'I'm Iron Man?' How sexy is that?"
The hateful comments Hyman has seen online since her story went viral have left her feeling unsafe.
"I'm trying right now not to look at the Internet. It's pretty painful for me," she said. "I'm afraid for my safety right now."
She added that she was "mortified and scared" following her training-academy suspension.
A judge quickly reinstated her, allowing her to graduate from the academy on June 8, although she faces a disciplinary hearing June 27
"I don't want to be judged on what I did in the past and not who I am now," she said.
Her lawyer, James Lisa, says she deserves to keep her hard-earned job.
"I just want the world to see this young lady as she is," he said. "She's not a carnival sideshow. She's a woman committed to law enforcement.
"The biggest question is, 'Did she lie in her application?' She did not. She said she was a model, photographer and an actress."
Lisa said Hyman could be fired at the disciplinary hearing or the matter could be dismissed altogether.
The Hudson County prosecutor's office declined to pursue any criminal charges against Hyman.
Court documents show that Sheriff Frank Schillari concurred with the discipline against Hyman, saying it was necessary to protect the department's integrity and to prevent her from taking an oath of office 'for which she is not entitled'.