Anna Leask

Anna Leask is senior police reporter for the New Zealand Herald.

Dawson's cry for help in final interview

Charlotte Dawson. Photo / Getty Images
Charlotte Dawson. Photo / Getty Images

In her final television interview, filmed six weeks before she died, Charlotte Dawson gave the clearest indication that her struggle with life was reaching a crisis, saying, "I don't have anything."

The 47-year-old's words screened on Australian television last night on Channel 7's Sunday Night programme.

Before the show aired, the network published an open letter addressing the cyber bullying that Dawson often claimed to be a victim of.

The letter called on all users of social media to help create change by "not tolerating or engaging with bullying of any kind".

"This interview was supposed to mark the beginning of a new life for Charlotte. Instead, it now represents the end," the letter said.

"But her message is still the same: she wanted to love herself, love others and be accepted for who she was.

"We ask you this weekend, out of respect for Charlotte and a need for change, share her message. Don't tolerate bullying, intimidation and hate ... help us help people like Charlotte Dawson."

Depicting a reflective, lonely and visibly depressed Dawson, the piece was filmed in Bali in January.

She was there on a "healing holiday" and hoped it would help her turn her life around.

She wanted 2014 to be productive and had plans to launch a homeware range with friends.

But in the Sunday Night interview, Dawson seemed to be crying out for help.

"I have to love myself. I don't have a partner, I don't have my mother or father, I don't have any family in Australia. I don't have anything, you know? I'm looking down the barrel of an unemployment gun and the bullet's gone off," she said.

"I'm just me and so I don't have that shoulder to cry on at night."

She went on to speak about fear being her "worst enemy".

"I can't be fearful ... it's everyone's worst enemy, fear of the future. Especially when you don't have one to look at."

While in Bali Dawson visited a "high priestess" for advice.

"You're holding pain and sadness - it's breaking your heart piece by piece," the woman told Dawson.

"And you need to forgive. Of course you're hurting yourself because you're holding that sadness all the time. And you're blaming yourself."

"Yeah," Dawson agreed.

Just over a month later, the former model and television star was found dead in the living room of her Sydney apartment.

She had battled depression for years, was drinking more than usual and had a string of failed relationships.

Where to get help:

Lifeline: 0800 543 354 (available 24/7)

Suicide Crisis Helpline: 0508 828 865 (0508 TAUTOKO) (available 24/7)

Youth services: (06) 3555 906

Youthline: 0800 376 633

Kidsline: 0800 543 754 (4pm to 6pm weekdays)

Whatsup: 0800 942 8787 (noon to midnight)

The Word

Depression helpline: 0800 111 757 (available 24/7)

Rainbow Youth: (09) 376 4155

CASPER Suicide Prevention

If it is an emergency and you feel like you or someone else is at risk, call 111.

- NZ Herald

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